as it doesn`t always work out, it is even more appreciated, when achieved.
comin out from within, draw from inside,
hookin up with your best self and feel content.
i shouldnt ask myself where is it comin from, but I did. cause it makes sence. and I just love the feeling when it does ;) on a daily basis there is just so many sutiations, where I have to be satisfied with : where is this comin from.. a retorical question to myself, remaining unanswered.
so, it’s all part of the Master Plan? or is it all a consequence of many decisions, great and small, made throughout the Lifetime?
the sky is slowly, slowly clearin out. looking for aprooval wil be this girls forever journey. but then, she gets disappointed as her expectations dont fullfill. such an obvious outcome of a "dream never realy come true" story.
should one just put a board around his neck? sayin "I want you to tell me I am good at tenis, so I can be happy at all times" . people would tell you what u wanted to hear and you would be happy.
seriously?
je ne pense pa.
as often as I do that, I dont believe we are made to please others. i am one fortunate kiddo, have made it to 30s with quite some best decisions, which all led to a happy day like this one. is just one of 365 days in the year, and is a good one. cause it is a consequence of the days before this one, and the future ones look promisin because of today. you know what i mean?
look at a blooming apple tree. the sun is shinin on a warm day in the month of may, and the hard working bees are doin their best to pic up the best of nectar to bring to their hives. whithby they fertilise the tree and you can look forward to a fruity autumn, to pick those apples up and keep them in stock throughout the winter.
I knew I still had it ;)
inspired by music and a certain ted-talk about how much is enough, i am sat down on the floor, next to small fire, embraced by the smell of fresh pie i just took out of the oven. grateful for the apples, and grandma who insisted on me being the girl who should cook.
and smillin at this fact:
great things come out of gratitude.
